Autism

So, Eleanor had the miscarrage at the hospital, I don’t know what I can say about it to be honest. It was hard, I shut-down and burried myself in the laptop whilst Eleanor was going through it. I just didn’t know what to do, I couldn’t help, I couldn’t take it on, I couldn’t fix it, I froze, I burried myself into something I could control and fix and I’m ashamed of myself for that.